Assalamualaikum . Well today my mood was not so good or truthfully , EMO .

Well , there's a boy who liked me and I likes him too .Well , its normal . Yes , some of my friends knew about this thing , so , you all just consider it as a "fairy tale" .

We were on the same school , same class . Sitting just a meter away . Well , you guys maybe have the clue now . In that year , i felt so happy . We are not couple anymore . Yes , we tried to make it further , but , I'm thinking of my sins . Yes , i've made the right decision . I'm thinking of my sins . Well , who knows i might die tomorrow . Yes , this is history .

Yes , i dumped you . But , it doesn't mean i don't love you anymore . Yes , i still love you BUT , as a friend . Why won't you talk to me as usual . Yeah , you might shy whatsoever . Okay , i totally didn't care . Truthfully , I miss the old you . Yes , you don't change at all . You are the same you . Like always . You know what i mean . Just sometime , i really can't bear this feeling anymore . I do love you .

I'll let Allah do the rest for . I'll just have to do the best for this time . I don't want to commit more sins . I'm so sorry that i've dumped you just like that .

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim .
Ya Allah , kau ampunkan lah dosa aku , dosa kedua ibu bapaku dan dosa seluruh muslimin dan muslimat . Ya Allah , aku tahu apa yang aku lakukan adalah sesuatu yang Engkau redhai . Aku tahu kau mahu hambamu mencintaiMu lebih dari segala galanya . Namun , aku insan yang lemah . Aku masih tidak mampu untuk membuat cintaku padaMu lebih tinggi dari cintaku terhadap kaum adam . Ya Allah Yang Maha Pengampun Lagi Maha Penyanyang , Kau ampunkan dosa aku selama ini Ya Allah . Ya Allah Yang Maha Menentukan , jika benar dia adalah jodohkan ku , maka kau jadikan lah aku yang terbaik baginya . Namun jika sebaliknya , kau hilangkan lah dia dari ingatan ku dan berikanlah aku dan dia pasangan yang lebih baik . Sesungguhnya , Kau Yang Maha Mengetahui . Amin , Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin .
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